for one peacful thought

Adel asked me tonight: What exist beyond the universe? What does it look like inside a black hole? What makes up a molecule?

In a Big Cast Iron: 1.  Boil Noodles(In Pot) 2. 3 Chicken Breast 3. Garlic- 1 clove 4. Spinach- 1 bag 5. Mascarpone- 1 1/2 cup 6. Parmesan- 1 cup 7. Lemon juice/Lemon zest(1 lemon) 8. Basil Leafs

Neuro Associative Conditioning What would be the neuro associations that i will need  to create the destiny i really want...? What associations would i link to things such as: Learning, growing, giving, money, challenging myself, taking risks, relationships, commitment, power... What are some of the negative neuro associations that may be holding me back? And what are some of the empowering ones i need? 3 Positive Neuro associations 1. Hiking/ Outdoor adventures 2. Spending time with Adel (Reading and playing outside) 3. Listening to friends/strangers talk about their problems 3 Negative Neuro Associations 1. Seizure Medicine and Drinking= bad feelings 2. My disability+ Math skills 3. Relationships/dating What controls our life is the meaning we associate to a given situation. The meaning determines our behavior Destiny is based on daily behavior For every result you begin to create a direction

Petty Johns was amazing. Terrifying. Disorienting. The cave messed with my mind a lttle bit. We all turned our lights off in the cave to experience the true darkness. The dark was nothing like ive ever experienced. Its nothing like being in your bedroom with the lights turned off at night. Its different. Its hard to describe. In the moment of darkness it made me think about nothingness. For a moment i felt 1was alive during the time before the big bang. I felt like i was in the universe before the universe came into existance. The further i descended into the cave the more i felt like i was descending into maddness. I was not descending into madness in my own mind. I felt like i was inside the mind of a serial killer . The disorenting effect of the cave made me feel like an astronaut in space. Why would traveling deep into the Earth make me feel closer to space? It felt like the cave was a representation of the mind. Maybe caves are entrances into the Earths mind and soul? I f...

A nurse asked me to wheel an old lady down the hall into another waiting room today. The nurse wheeled nana down for me while I wheeled the other patient down. When we got to the waiting room, the old lady told another woman to please go get her daughter out of the waiting room and tell her to come to the new waiting room.

I went to the mountains today with Ryan to see the leaves. I bought this long Appalachian trail map. Ive been looking at this map since I got home tonight-thinking maybe this is what I want in life-I want to hike the whole Appalachian trail. I got to thinking about being 30 years old and I am supposed to work full-time now, until I'm atlas 60, right? So where is the time to do hike the 2,181 miles? By the time Im retired or the older I get the more difficult that hike would be maybe? Life is backwards man. Like Charlie Wood says "we all gotta go down in the ground" But nah I don't think I really care about hiking the whole damn thing. I enjoy the time I spend outdoors and thats enough...i think. But I get all these dreams in my head when looking at that trail map. Google just said it costs about 1,000 a month- When I get to the end of the trail, so what? I think id just feel like Forest Gump- "Im pretty tired of runnin', think ill go home now" But like t...

Success is one step at a time. Break through the limits that stop you. Success at making that contact... Small daily changes= transform quality of life Control Power of your mental Focus. Our focus in life will manifest How can I design my life? Dr. J-- I demand more from myself than anyone Subconscious idea of what we think we deserve The past does not= the future Power= the ability to act Re-programming the mind- #1The more clear on what you want(physically, emotionally, financially, intellectually)- there is the driving force behind your behavior... #2 TAKE ACTION(But what action?)- ROLL modeling(find someone who is getting the results you want...Brad Cohen?!)..accelerate your success #3 Notice what you are getting from your actions #4 If you are not getting closer to your goal-try something else GRIT I am not willing to settle for anything less. DECIDE-cut off from any other possibility. ITS NOT WHAT WE CAN DO IN LIFE ITS WHAT WE WILL DO WOROUT THE MU...

How did I learn to compete with other online players using only one hand on the PS4 controller? Thinking about the way I have figured out how to do many things one-handed, it makes me ask myself, what am I truly capable of? ANYTHING. Dr. Kozinn suggested I can go see Dr.Rush (a psychologist) who can help me figure out what I want in life? Right now I just started listening to Tony Robin tapes that my Aunt Bucky has been insisting I listen to.

#sweet&Sassy #joy

Lastnight nana told me about when she was 10 years old she climbed into a tree house with about 7 other children and the tree house came crashing down. Nana told me they used to walk around the neighborhood with a goat and a wagon. Well the goat would pull the wagon. The wagon was full of food like corn and squash water mellon. Bill said to get roofing Tar. We climbed onto of the roof and he was showing me the chimney flashing.

Adel and I planted 2 Fuji apple trees in the backyard today. we've got Pomegranate tree, watermelon and collard greens growing. The Orcan guy came out to look at the barn. He said the long holes in the barn were NOT termites, but carpenter bees. Well he said the woodpeckers come and dig out the carpenter bees larva from the wood. I should fact check that. He quoted us $750 to treat the whole house + barn. Adel missed school today. Yesterday I met Johnies new girlfriend. She seems pretty chilled back. We put this old basketball goal together and played 21 in the street. I went for a run yesterday too. I need to finish the exit Ethics exam that I just found out about and get my official teaching certification.

I picked up randi and we went to QT to grab some breakfast before going to Adels's Music recital. Adel was wearing a little fish around her neck and all the 1st graders are singing songs about the Ocean. It was really cool. Adel was in the back row. And I remember feeling agitated that she was in the back. I believe the kids were organized on stage by class (Ms. Bishops class in the back). They were not organized by height. Randi said maybe Adel is having trouble following the dance because she could not see the music instructor. thinking about it now is making me a little irrupted again. But all is well her Art was on the wall outside her classroom. It seemed to really stand out from her classmates art. But I bet every parent thinks that about their childs art. Every parent wants there child to stand out in a good way. Ms.Bishop did not say much to Randi and I. I remember thinking I bet she is really tired. Teaching is stressful. Adel's birthday is in 12 days. I know I wa...

I saw Bill outside working in the garden. I walked over and he was fertilizing his tomatoes. He like to talk. I like talking to him. He's done a lot of cool stuff. He replaced his roof on his house, says he saved like $1,500.00 He mentioned that some standard roof pipe things will leak water. He replaced his with ones that water cannot get into. He also used carbon fiber to fix his house foundation. He told me about some caves in North GA called Petty Johns Cave and some other cave systems West of Aragon GA. He says one would not find these caves on a map-. He says Petty Johns cave can be dangerous- the cave floods when a storm comes in and if you are in the cave during a heavy rain you will die. He said China is going to own the International space station or something like that. I told him about Providence and showed him a picture. I also told him I was planning to goto Cumberland island and he asked me if I was going to do any swimming maybe body surfing..He suggested I bring BU...

Ryan and I went to Providence Canyon. I knew nothing about the place. We were blown away. We grabbed a map from the abandoned interpretive center. The map proved to be pretty confusing. The trail was blazed well with red paint on the loblolly pines. We hiked the 7 mile loop. We found the canyon floor trails after an exhausting canyon rim hike. The canyon floor trails were not marked on the map. Karina raised a good question about the site. "What message are people taking away from the site when they leave?" Im fascinated with Providence and the mythology that surrounds the place. How should we look at Providence? A cautionary tale or a beautiful state park? Maybe Both. Bill would say Both because he's really into seeing everything as a duality. AndI think I tend to look at the world now through the lens of Bill's duality philosophy.  Julie said maybe Providence is like a poem. It depends on who is looking at it and the meaning of the place is defined by the person l...